rock bottom

i haven't felt this shit in so long. i feel sick, i've vomited like 20 times today, i have the most painful cut on my hand and i don't even know where it came from, i stubbed my toe, my mums like trapped me in my room and has declared her hate for me.
i'm so lonely. but i don't want to go out and see anyone because i feel so damn low.
and god, just fuck you, you are the shittiest person i have ever met, i mean it's not like you lie a lot, it's the fact that your lies are hurtful and bring me down 1000000000 times more.
you're meant to make me feel okay about myself you fuckwit.